Casting Fear at His Feet

Cool dry days and chilly evenings are upon us.

The One who holds the universe is harkening back autumn once again.

Crisp dry woods burn and scent the air with that nostalgic campfire aroma.

Our local high school greens uphold cleated feet, tackled teens and marching boots, all gearing up and getting ready for that first Friday night under the bright lights.

Memories flood of those swift and fast days of my youth whenever this season is drawing near.

Somewhere deep but not too far gone is that young girl filled with fears of walking into the crowded lunchroom, tray in hand, looking for a place to sit...throat dry and stomach fluttering...scanning, praying to find a familiar friendly face with an empty space open so her biggest fear of eating alone won't come to fruition in high school as had happened much too often in middle school.

Not too far gone is the girl who worries way too often what others think...

Nerves still flutter in social situations...

The "pleaser" who pretended to like liverwurst so her mama would praise her "easiness"  still frantically seeks approval...

Much of the time mulling over many words spilled out in conversations...

And now my little ones, these beings who have filled this hollowed heart to overflowing, will be trekking gym floors with lunch trays in hands.

And this gift of motherhood pushes me to hard places as I worry about their hearts breaking and personalities pleasing others...

But His Word reminds me:

"Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything.  Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.  Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand.  His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus."(Phil. 4:6-7 NLT)


And so I throw my worries, my needs at the feet of the Creator of the Universe who holds our lives in the palm of His hand and offer thanksgiving for this new season drawing near, even if it is a hard thanks...because I know that His peace will guard my every fear...